EMG

        All bereaved parents dread the holidays because we always have an empty chair.  It is heartbreaking to not have Amy with us at any time but it hurts even more on holidays when our entire family gets together.Our other child all get older, have special moments such as weddings, births of children, graduations, new homes, etc. and go on with their normal lives.  And we are so happy for them, but our grief will not end until our lives end.  My friend Roe, also a bereaved mom, died last year and a part of me is a bit envious. I know that sounds strange to non-bereaved parents but it is true.  The song by Brad Paisley has such beautiful words.
       Yesterday my pain level was better than it has been for a long time. I was definitely a 7.5 , maybe even a 7 for most of the day.  I got another laser treatment yesterday. I think it is really working!! Today I had to go get an EMG of my lower extremities. The doc told me that he was going to try to pinpoint exactly where my nerve is damaged. He hooked me up to a machine and then shocked different parts of my leg and my foot. I wasn't in much  pain before I had the test but I am in terrible pain right now.  After the shocks, he then inserted a pin in different parts of my leg muscles. He then decided to do the right leg to see if there was a difference! OUCH and OUCH again!! I am glad that is over. He told me that he doesn't believe in lasers!  He told me that I should consider surgery. I told him all of the different things I tried and told him that the laser is the ONLY thing that has given me any relief at all!  And I don't want to have surgery! After the test, I considered going shopping, but I changed my mind.  I just wanted to go home and relax and take it easy.  I want to buy Adam and Renee a Brava Wet Jet robotic mop but I couldn't find it online last night.  I'll search later today!
        Yesterday I kept pitching forward!  I actually fell into my sink bowl when I was washing my face last night! That was awful because i had face wash on my face and my eyes were closed! I felt myself going but I sort of froze??What the heck?? I mean, why didn't I open my eyes or pull up my arms to stop myself?? It happened so quickly, my nose hit the sink and it is so sore today. My PD was so off balance!!