Precious photos that I had not seen of my deceased daughter AMY

       Today I had lunch with an old friend that I had not seen for many years until my friend Roe's funeral.  She had some photos of Amy from when she was a little girl and wanted to give them to me.  It was fun chatting and catching up.  The years just seemed to fade away when we were sitting chatting.  I think Amy was about 9 the last time I saw Angela.  Amy is gone almost 18 years so I have not seen Angela for close to thirty years.  Sitting chatting with her was like having seen her yesterday, really, it was so comfortable.  Maybe when we get older, we just don't care about crap or drama. I couldn't look at the pictures in the restaurant, I had to wait until I got home and was alone.  I thought I would bawl my eyes out but I didn't. Yesterday Dan and I watched the video that my friend made of all our deceased children and Dan and I spent the morning crying. The grief is everlasting, I am grief stricken everyday.  I never know how I will feel.  I am fine looking at photos of Amy that are all over my house. Tonight is my evening bereaved parent meeting. I am glad to see everyone and it keeps me moving because once I sit down, I am done for the day!! Amy was such a happy little girl, she was ALWAYS smiling.

        After the lunch, I went to the Rock Steady Boxing class.  I think the class is almost fun!!I can keep up easily but they switch things up as soon as I get comfortable with the punches and jabs.  I am also going to have PT in my home from that group.  My neurologist told me to exercise and move around everyday.  Angela told me about a program called Silver Sneakers at the YMCA and other places.  The classes are free for people on Medicare and AARP supplemental insurance.  I have  AARP so I will have to check it out.  She attends a drumming class that is free and she takes her friend Jean who also has Parkinson's.  Maybe I will join that class if I can fit it into my doctor and therapy visits!!